I’ve been uncovering a massive shadow side along the journey of “accessing my highest potential.”
With this almost obsessive orientation towards “expansion,” I’ve been subtly telling myself..
...I am never enough exactly as I am...
I want you to explore yourself, inside and out.
I want you to get intimate with your own shadow, just as much as your own light.
I want you to know yourself so wholly that no aspect of you is unseen.
Underneath my exuberant belief that we are spiritual beings having a human experience, I doubted whether what I sought was attainable at all. I had moments where I wondered if I was doing something wrong.. I felt like perhaps I had not been deemed worthy of the eternal embrace.
I felt I had to do more to prove myself.
If you listen closely enough, I'm betting you'll find that what you thought was you falling off your path is actually life redirecting you, providing you valuable lessons you wouldn't have had otherwise.
I'm guessing that when you keep going, you'll look back and realize that the Universe was quietly preparing you to find your purpose & fulfill your mission
What living with Lyme has taught me more than anything else is how to have deep gratitude for this human experience. It has taught me to enjoy the little moments, both the ones filled with light and the ones filled with pain, because no matter how shitty the moment may feel, it's just an experience and at some point, eventually, there will be something else to experience. It has taught me that the only constant in life is change, and that instead of pushing against what is happening, I can surrender and choose to learn from it instead.
My truth is that we are, in fact, the center and creator of our own Universe, that we are spiritual beings having a human experience, that there is no one path to God but that we’ll all get there eventually and that we were put on this Earth to enjoy our bodies and experience the beauty of physical reality.
Using sexual energy is more than simply fucking for the hedonistic pleasure of getting off-- it's a sacred practice that connects us with the essence of who we are. It channels a creative energy that is bringing forth a new way of being in the world, a new form of existence that has yet to be seen and utilized by our modern society but that has been known by ancient cultures around the globe for thousands of years.
The last two years have dramatically changed who I was, allowing me to step more fully into who I am and to witness the unfolding of who I will be. I’m not even sure who the person was anymore that made the big move from Canada to the US in May 2012 and I don’t miss her at all. I am slowly but surely metamorphosing into the person that I am supposed to be, my true self.
