I’ve been uncovering a massive shadow side along the journey of “accessing my highest potential.”
With this almost obsessive orientation towards “expansion,” I’ve been subtly telling myself..
...I am never enough exactly as I am...
I want you to explore yourself, inside and out.
I want you to get intimate with your own shadow, just as much as your own light.
I want you to know yourself so wholly that no aspect of you is unseen.
Underneath my exuberant belief that we are spiritual beings having a human experience, I doubted whether what I sought was attainable at all. I had moments where I wondered if I was doing something wrong.. I felt like perhaps I had not been deemed worthy of the eternal embrace.
I felt I had to do more to prove myself.
If you listen closely enough, I'm betting you'll find that what you thought was you falling off your path is actually life redirecting you, providing you valuable lessons you wouldn't have had otherwise.
I'm guessing that when you keep going, you'll look back and realize that the Universe was quietly preparing you to find your purpose & fulfill your mission
What living with Lyme has taught me more than anything else is how to have deep gratitude for this human experience. It has taught me to enjoy the little moments, both the ones filled with light and the ones filled with pain, because no matter how shitty the moment may feel, it's just an experience and at some point, eventually, there will be something else to experience. It has taught me that the only constant in life is change, and that instead of pushing against what is happening, I can surrender and choose to learn from it instead.
If you listen closely enough, I'm betting you'll find that what you thought was you falling off your path is actually life redirecting you, providing you valuable lessons you wouldn't have had otherwise.
I'm guessing that when you keep going, you'll look back and realize that the Universe was quietly preparing you to find your purpose & fulfill your mission
When you release what's no longer in alignment with your highest good, you'll feel free. You may feel a bit lost too, being without that thing you've held onto for so long, but feeling lost is an indicator that you're doing things your own way.
Humble yourself. Begin to pray. Ask for guidance. Keep your mind focused on "What's next?" and life will begin to reveal it for you.
Doctors and my family are encouraging me to turn to western medical treatments (birth control, surgery, etc.), but as illogical as it may seem to conventional wisdom, I know with every fiber of my being that what I'm experiencing right now is a part of the cleansing process that I chose to begin while in the jungle. It doesn't make any sense in our modern paradigm of healing, but I've seen enough to know that there is more to healing than what most doctors can even begin to conceive.
Yes, I'm in constant pain right now, but it's not for nothing..
