I’ve been uncovering a massive shadow side along the journey of “accessing my highest potential.”
With this almost obsessive orientation towards “expansion,” I’ve been subtly telling myself..
...I am never enough exactly as I am...
I want you to explore yourself, inside and out.
I want you to get intimate with your own shadow, just as much as your own light.
I want you to know yourself so wholly that no aspect of you is unseen.
Underneath my exuberant belief that we are spiritual beings having a human experience, I doubted whether what I sought was attainable at all. I had moments where I wondered if I was doing something wrong.. I felt like perhaps I had not been deemed worthy of the eternal embrace.
I felt I had to do more to prove myself.
If you listen closely enough, I'm betting you'll find that what you thought was you falling off your path is actually life redirecting you, providing you valuable lessons you wouldn't have had otherwise.
I'm guessing that when you keep going, you'll look back and realize that the Universe was quietly preparing you to find your purpose & fulfill your mission
What living with Lyme has taught me more than anything else is how to have deep gratitude for this human experience. It has taught me to enjoy the little moments, both the ones filled with light and the ones filled with pain, because no matter how shitty the moment may feel, it's just an experience and at some point, eventually, there will be something else to experience. It has taught me that the only constant in life is change, and that instead of pushing against what is happening, I can surrender and choose to learn from it instead.
I breathed a deep sigh of relief and gave gratitude for the opportunity being presented to me-- the chance to let go of the old belief that I have no control over my body and the space to witness the ever-present healing power that my body holds. Moments later, my felt the tension moving up from my neck and out through the top of my head and later I realized that without pain, there would be no opportunity to experience the magic of relief.
When we move away from the noise and into the silence of no-thing-ness, we first find ourselves facing the parts of ourselves that we have been trying to avoid-- the shadow aspects of ourselves that we consciously and unconsciously try to hide away from the world.
This is where the discomfort that we associate with the space comes from. We haven't been taught how to handle the no-thing-ness, whether it be in physical form or energetically, so we automatically do what we can to make ourselves feel full again through our addictions.
Our external world is a direct collective representation of our internal worlds. In order for global peace to exist, we must first clean up our internal environment, to find our own inner balance and peace. Depression, anxiety, and other mental/emotional imbalances are at an all time high, as is a general dissatisfaction with life.
Any sort of illness, whether it be physical or mental, is a messenger, a call from Spirit to bring our focus inwards, to take time to witness ourselves and the unfolding of our own inner process. We are often all to quick to project onto others how they should think, behave, etc. but, honestly, how often do we pause to check that we are in alignment in all aspects of our own lives; mind, body, and spirit?
