Since I shaved my head 5 months ago, I've been directly facing some of my deepest insecurities around my physical form. Yeah yeah, I know.. We're all spiritual beings and the physical is just an illusion, yada yada.. AND while I do believe that perspective about life on a very deep level, walking around as though our body's don't matter because we're all just energy can lead to another form of self-hate because of a twisted dissociation from our humanness. We can begin to see the body and the material realm as "less than," which can lead to some pretty fucked up spiritual bypassing.
Doctors and my family are encouraging me to turn to western medical treatments (birth control, surgery, etc.), but as illogical as it may seem to conventional wisdom, I know with every fiber of my being that what I'm experiencing right now is a part of the cleansing process that I chose to begin while in the jungle. It doesn't make any sense in our modern paradigm of healing, but I've seen enough to know that there is more to healing than what most doctors can even begin to conceive.
Yes, I'm in constant pain right now, but it's not for nothing..